There is a solution (Step 2). Almost none of us liked the self- searching, the leveling of our pride, (Step 4) the confession of shortcomings (Steps 5 &6 which). But we saw that it really worked in others, and we had come to believe in the hopelessness and futility of life as we had been living it (Step 1). When, therefore, we were approached by those in whom the problem had been solved, there was nothing left for us but to pick up the simple kit of spiritual tools laid at out feet (steps 4-9). We have found much of heaven and we have been rocketed into a fourth dimension of existence of which we had not even dreamed.(Step 12) Alcoholics Anonymous page 25

The great fact is just this, and nothing less: That we have had deep and effective spiritual experiences* which have revolutionized our whole attitude toward life, toward our fellows and toward God's universe. The central fact of our lives today is the absolute certainty that our Creator has entered into our hearts and lives in a way which is indeed miraculous. He has commenced to accomplish those things for us which we could never do by ourselves. (Step 12)

For me at this point of my recovery God is everything or he is nothing. Thru the process of the 12 steps I have finally learned that faith in God is of the utmost importance. By observing those around me who are still trying to run the show...who are struggling and have no serenity in their lives, and here I am going thru what I'm going thru and since I believe that God will take care of me I can face life in a calmness that is fairly new to me. But it is becoming comfortable. Trust me I have "dabbled" in drifting away, I have gone a week or so without saying my prayers and doing my meditations and I am no longer comfortable with that feeling. To those of you that struggle remember, I never wanted to do the steps but, they are a process. They are a process that allows us to recognize a problem (step1), realize and believe in a solution (Step 2). Make a decision to do what it takes to reach the solution (Step 3-11). And then when we have that spiritual awakening as promised (and the book if full of promises), we are then equipped to face life on life's terms. So as you start your day ask for Gods help, go thru your day and do something nice for someone and not tell anyone about it. Then at night say a thank you. Try this for 2 weeks and see how you feel.