Step 2

"Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity."

So it's not strange that lots of us have had our day at defying God Himself. Sometimes it's because God has not delivered us the good things of life which we specified, as a greedy child makes an impossible list for Santa Claus. More often, though, we had met up with some major calamity, and to our way of thinking lost out because God deserted us. (12X12 page 31).

Never being raised in a church but attending sometimes a fire and brimstone old testement God will smote you and you will burn at the gates of Hell church with my grandmother I was scared to death of God growning up. The things I had done I just knew were going to put me in a place that was really warm. I joked saying " I was raised in the desert, I like a warm climate and want to be close to my friends. Or I would say that I can't go to church because I don't want to be responsible for the chruch beding destroyed by the lightning strike brought upon the church from my precense. How the denial of my disease warped my mind. When I came into AA I could somewhat buy into the other stuff but that "God Thing" was not for me. I spent a lot of time doing "foxhole prayers" God, get me out of this jam and I will never do it again. I now have a understanding of a very loving and understanding God. He loves me so much he gave me self will and he will let me destroy myself if thats what I wish to do. BUT, if I choose to seek him. If I do a few things each day to nurture the relationship that I cultivated with him by the process of the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous the he watches over me. He protects me. He has given me a life beyond my wildest dreams. If you're new, If you're struggling its OK. Just remember for God to start working in my life I had to first be willing, then be open minded, then make the commitment to turn my will and my life over to his care, then take the action needed to bring about the psychic change needed to remove my obession to drink and align myself with HIS will not MINE.