Food For Thought 6/20/2009

We alcoholics are men and women who have lost the ability to control our drinking. We know that no real alcoholic ever recovers control. All of us felt at times that we were regaining control, but such intervals - usually brief - were inevitably followed by still less control, which led in time to pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization. We are convinced to a man that alcoholics of our type are in the grip of a progressive illness. Over any considerable period we get worse, never better.(Alcoholics Anonymous Chapter 3 page 30).

My Friend Karen R. always said "When I was controlling my drinking, I couldn't enjoy it;and when I was enjoying it I couldn't control it". This is so true for me, I quit drinking so many times after a big drunk. Little did I know that quitting was the easy part. It was STAYING stopped that was the problem. Usually after a big drunk I would say OK no more! Then the next day it would be, Okay i'm feeling better maybe just one or two. "Over any considerable period we get worse,never better". Notice it doesn't say that we must be drinking for it to get worse? This tells me that to hopefully grow my spiritual condition faster than my disease is growing is the answer to the problem. I shudder at the thought of where my disease has progressed after 12 yrs of not feeding it. Happy Fathers day to those Dad's out there. Let's spend some time with our kids. Papa John, Happy Fathers Day it's mostly due to you and God that I am the man I am today. I miss you and love you so much!